MEMORIAL SPEECH
Forde Abbey, January 2005
Memorial Speech – Forde Abbey, January 2005
A wonderful friend and work colleague sent me this touching message just after we had found Piers. It is simply titled 'Stars'.
"Perhaps they are not the stars, but rather openings in heaven where the love of our lost ones pours through and shines down upon us to let us know they are alright and to light the way for the rest of our lives".
I found this such a fitting tribute to Piers - it would appear that his role up in heaven will be the same role that he undertook for me, as his younger brother during our precious time together. He was my very own 'Guardian Angel' - right from day one, always there to illuminate the path for me and make sure that I settled into a new establishment with comfort protection and with an insight knowledge of how the system worked. I don't believe he was ever asked to do this - it was just his instinct - to care and to 'brother' his younger brother.
It is known that your character is deeply formed within the first six months of your life. How lucky we all are to have been enriched by the wonderful personality, which Piers possessed for the entirety of his 33 years. His was one that exemplified consistency - he rarely wavered from his natural inner ability to be kind and considerate to others. (Even now after I curse, I find myself thinking - Piers would not have said or done that).
As children, we were blessed with freedom and a sense of space courtesy of Home Farm. Seldom did we spend time indoors - the yard and the fields provided much more entertainment - a venue to hold numerous sporting activities, a race circuit for bicycles and motorbikes and a meeting point for the other children in the village. Our brotherhood very quickly moulded into a best friend status. The three year age difference was of course much more evident then. P was always the first to try something new; a higher diving board or a new sport and his natural ability to succeed at it gave his younger brother inspiration and a competitiveness to keep up. Where he was level and calm and persistent, I was stubborn and erratic. Nevertheless, with nagging encouragement from Dad, and a will to succeed from Piers, I got there in the end and our unity would gain another notch.
There were formal occasions too where our 'togetherness' was enhanced by Mum and her decision to put us in matching outfits. Piers' appearance was impeccable - top button done up, tie perfectly knotted and not a hair out of place. My appearance was always based on comfort, but P was always there to readjust and straighten out. In 1977 he earned the role as a Page Boy at a cousin's wedding where, as you can imagine he carried out his duties with a dignity and politeness that well excedded his 6 years of age. I spent the afternoon locked in the car -sadly throwing stones at my Aunties' wedding, earlier that year put an end to a potential double act.
P was persistent, very thorough, a born worrier and extremely conscientious in all he did. As a young boy I learned how to use this to my advantage - so concerned was he of being late for primary school he would clean my shoes and then even put them on my feet. Without any word of exaggeration - I must have been 7 years old before I was told "learn to tie your own laces" by Dad though, not P.
He would spend a great deal of time pushing a subject matter around, (or 'faffing' as I used to call it), be it on school homework, a college assignment, a sketch of a make believe landscape, or the choice of a new second hand car. To watch this process was intriguing; with furrowed brow and concern etched on his face, he would hone in on the finest of detail. Then, when the matter had been considered and then reconsidered generating endless notes, the furrows would eventually lift and he would relax, satisfied, that the problem and his mind were at ease.
Amongst such a process tho, there was always an over riding passion for everything, he did and chose to do....... and with this formula, he would strive to excel: Little wonder then, that he would be my role model and like a magnet I was drawn to the very things in his life that he achieved. For if Pierswas consistent, he was consistently good and the lure that he cast out in his everyday life was for me, always an attractive one. Clubs and teams at school and Yeovil College, a 'gap' year, Landscape Architecture at Cheltenham and then working with Simon Johnson were all organizations or events that I followed courtesy of P. As I mentioned before, he was my Guardian Angel and I trod his well-worn illuminated path in the knowledge that I too would revel in each environment as much as he had done so himself.
Our ‘twin-like’ status continued well into our later life although the 3-year age gap diminished and (without help from Mum this time) we still paraded around in similar appearance. Not planned by any degree, we would often meet up during a University holiday and discover we had purchased the same shirt or music album. I did my best to break the cycle - hairstyles and colours would change and beards would come and go (no comments please), but not P – he knew what he liked and he rarely strayed from it. Our bond extended past the superficial external elements deep into our internal psyches. Rather spookily, when we met up in Goa, India last December after exactly 11 months apart we found we were reading the same book and we were almost on the same page.
An aspect I love about family life is the handing down of personal traits from generation to generation and we were both fortunate to inherit from our beloved Grandfathers. Grandpa Simon had a wonderful sense of mystery to him, combined with an ability to dither just before he was due to leave the house, consequently making him late. Grandpa Marsh would give everybody a nickname. Piers certainly acquired a secretive nature; often a story would be exposed months down the line coming third hand from an eventual source. We referred to him as a ‘dark horse’ and like the mascot of the well-known bank the nickname ‘Lloyd’ was coined.
The response following his leaving us has highlighted just how much (Lloyd), sorry Piers touched people in their respective lives. We as a family have a lifetime of memories to relay repeatedly in our minds and have shared yours and others thru the staggering amount of cards and letters we have received. This particular letter made us cry, not with sadness but with laughter and I would like to share it with you all.
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Dear Henry
Half an hour ago I poured myself a large scotch and settled down to write to you and I’m not getting on very well. I don’t know what to write, I don’t know how I can help you, I don’t know why my prayers weren’t answered – I just don’t understand it all.
So, I’m going to pour myself another large scotch, sit down and think about it and drink to you and your courageous, determined and wonderful son. I will raise my glass to the memory of Piers – a memory of a marvellous man, a good friend and a very special friend of Hannah and Antero. I will drink to the happy time we shared back in summer sorting out the Gardens at Hazelgrove under his watchful eye.
Memories that will stay with me forever – how lucky I am to have known him. We all send our love to you all. You have been and will be for a long time in our thoughts and prayers.
Let’s have a Happy New Year,
God bless you all,
Cheers
Nobby
PS. I think I will have just one more!
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It was Piers who was the first in our family to discover the great Cornish comedian Jethro. I remember fondly him reciting how whilst listening to him in the car he had to pull over and stop as he was laughing so hard. Jethro has a rather poignant saying relevant to this occasion. He says,
“Treat every day as if it’s yer last………….’Cos one day you’ll be bloody right”
Piers’ leaving us so early in his and our lives is a testament to this saying, and a sharp reminder that we must cherish every single day in the same way Piers did. So - if there is something that you have been meaning to do and haven’t got around to doing it, don’t put it off any longer. And, when you have completed task, smile and think of Piers smiling back at you, for he will be happy and therefore, so should you.
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